"I tried to hard but got so far.." w4m
".. but in the end it doesn't even matter. I had to fall to lost it all, but in the end it doesn't even matter."
I know you'll never read this so I can get my feelings out and hopefully stay your friend without having to think back to how things could have/should have been all of the time. I've told you that I love you but I was too scared to look into your eyes to say it so you've probably always taken it as the way you meant it in the valentines day card you gave me, looking at that card and reading what you wrote still brings tears to my eyes. I wish I had told you from the beginning how I felt about you instead of waiting to see if your feelings would grow to become more. You've said in past conversations that my not being completely forthright with my emotions and opinions in all things was what finally led you to pursue "her", she who I don't even like thinking about in passing. We could have been great together but I hope you realize deep down as all of our friends do, that she was the first and biggest step in the wrong direction and what ultimately led me to questioning and second guessing almost everything that you would say to me. Every time anyone sees you two together now they bring it up to me and it breaks another small piece of my heart out, I've told you this before and I give up saying it anymore, I can't let you see how much you truly mean to me and the huge effect your friendship has had on me for the present and hopefully for many many years to come. You really are my best friend and I love you more than those words can honestly express. It hurts a bit less every day, but it doesn't help that we text every day, whether it be about serious topics or just friendly banter. I've done this to myself partly, in a way spoiling you so that you think that I'll always be there to bounce ideas off of, to hang out at the drop of a hat, watching movies til all hours of the night, etc. This helps, it lifts a bit of the weight off of my heart and helps me take a few more steps in the direction I need to go to eventually get over you and just simply be your friend and sounding board and "voice of reason" when you for advice. So thank you for being you, I don't think that the time is right for us now, you do need to do some growing up but I honestly don't think "she" is the best person to do that with, being that she's so much younger than us. What do the two of you honestly have to talk about or have in common? She's such a self-centered person I don't think you can get a word in edgewise other than the occasional "mhmm" to show that you're still in the room or on the and haven't fallen asleep lol. Yes, I know I sound bitter but I hope you realize somewhere down the line that we could have been great together, I'm still here for you and always will be but not in that way anymore. I know I truly am the strong one because I can still say No to you, whether you're testing me to see if I'll give in to you or if you are in your own way telling me that you made a mistake and want to be with me again but this time I need to "buck up pilgrim" and make the first move, damn the fear of being rejected by you. Next time, if we are so fortunate to get one, I will definitely initiate things more instead of just thinking of doing it. I love you J, I always will and I'm there right beside you holding your hand through thick and thin <3
Sex friends wants matures looking for sex I need a good face grinding, any ladies interested?
Online: Yesterday
Rosalyn
Age:
32
City:
Alstonville
Hair:
Long with Tendrils
Relation Type:
Thick rock hard cock, over 8looking for woman for today
Seeking:
I ready man
Relationship Status:
Never Married
About
Just when I start to move on with my life like you told me I found pictures of you. My heart stopped just like it always has. I miss you. I'd do anything to have one more argument with you. You still stop my heart and you always will. I hope that you find happiness some day with a girl that stops your heart like you do mine. I still love you and that will never change.I still wear the matching ring to yours. I wont take it off because I still have hope for us. I know I shouldn't but I cant stop loving someone I've loved for 15 years, well 16 since your birthday has passed. I cant listen to songs I grew to love because they remind me of you. I end up skipping through 90% of the music I have because they hold memories of you. I still dream of you. I still wish that I was falling asleep in your arms. You still hold my heart, you're still my . The number you have for me won't do any good to contact me. I love and miss you with all I have. Good bye my love. I hope one day we are able to talk again without fighting.